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Another happy weekend

Another great weekend at home.

Damn I hate coming home sometimes, its seriously is my home though I love it to death. The beautiful country side, my baby(Spot), my dogs, my kitty, just everything ik by heart. But when I come home I feel like shit!! School is great, paying 400 dollars to go is totally worth it only problem it’s the longest time I’ve been away from Spot. At school I feel as I am worth something. As soon as I go in to the Library Ms. Jones says “Hi K-lynn” she asks me what type of book I’m looking for today, if there are any teachers around she introduces me to them. Here Ms. Jackson (librarian at my regular school) tells me shouldn’t I be in class, you know your grades are going to suffer skipping so much. I’m not skipping!! At Mac when I walk to class the nurse sees me and says “Hi baby girl” we talk a little bit then I get to climb never ending steps, ok it does end I just got to climb to the 3rd floor. Me and Jose talk a lil than Lisa usually appears and we walk to class. Ms. Erwin says hi to us both, we get our calculator and papers, sit down and talk then Sara appears and we talk to her. She usually runs late so class starts soon after she gets there. During break I hang out with this really sweet guy, he startled me one day coming out of his class and I jumped and he said pardon me mam, sorry for freighting u and any thing that related to that manner. He is a foreign exchange student from Germany so he is HOT as well. He always is respectful to me and idk he is just really sweet. Go back to class for another 2 hrs, after that I walk down Bitters to CVS where my sister picks me up. Here is where the shit begins gosh she is so critical of me some times, today we fought cause I have this star on my arm that I cut one day when I got hurt really bad by some1, and I colored it in and shes like so idiotic teens draw stars on their arms now? You really aren’t old enough to graduate. Your such a hypochondriac” yea sis I sure love having high blood pressure and arthritis that I make myself believe I have it…mhmm I love not being able to do the things that mean a lot to me. Bull crap u deal with my hip for one day and ur understand y I am on painkillers, u deal with my high blood pressure and faint just by sitting up. Its not fun sis if I could magically make it disappear I would, I hate my health getting in the way of things. From 1-3:30 I play with my niece, read her books, if her friends come over I play with them, take them on a walk. Get on my e-mail if my sister goes to take a nap. 3:30ish the bastard arrives home, gosh I can’t stand my bro-in-law sometimes. He wouldn’t let me go chill in the church so instead I went to his freakin soccer game..whoo I get to watch a bunch of fat graphic designers try to play soccer…He thinks I worship the devil now to cause I some how can make his dog obey me with out getting bit, hmm that’s probably I don’t hit her every time she does something wrong. He hates that I sneak out of the house at night sorry, just u can’t keep me in a cage and a house is a cage to me. I want to feel that breeze on my face, walk on that soft soil, smell the flowers off the trees. He gets upset with my sister if the house isn’t clean when he gets home, he yells at Grace if she spelt water on the carpet, we can’t play horsie in the house when he comes home. I’m sorry hes a pain and needs to learn to live life. 5 o clock dad comes over to pick me up, slams the door waking me up, I was sleeping cause I had a migrain…yells at me telling me to get my stuff packed cause we are late. “late for what” nothing he just wanted to be a pain, I was playing country music on the radio country not rock not rap COUNTRY, he gets mad says no wonder y ur such an idiotic person if u listen to crap like that, well u listen to country to dad. We get home we get in a fight about me going straight to college after I graduate high school I get slapped I am now in here writing this. My mom just got home so I think I’m getting off so peace ppl another happy weekend with the family.

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