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I feel so dead inside. I'm a living zombie... I'm just going through the motions. I'm lying when I say I'm fine. A smile hides the frown and a laugh hides the tears. Nothing is fine. When I don't want to feel, I can't stop. And when I want to feel I'm so out of it that I can't.
I feel so dead inside. I'm a living zombie... I'm just going through the motions.
I'm lying when I say I'm fine. A smile hides the frown and a laugh hides the tears. Nothing is fine. When I don't want to feel, I can't stop. And when I want to feel I'm so out of it that I can't.
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If pussy doesn't mean feline, but instead, means pusillanimous and weak, I am not that. No form of cowardice crowds around my panties. You will not find any bastardization of woman on the moistness of my fingertips. I refuse pussy as femininity, as the arched back of feline, as myself. Call yourself weak, understand sex as an object to be stolen, never given. Gender role is a form of separation, built of Adam's rib segregati...
If pussy doesn't mean feline, but instead,
means pusillanimous and weak,
I am not that.
No form of cowardice crowds
around my panties.
You will not find any bastardization of woman
on the moistness of my fingertips.
I refuse pussy as femininity,
as the arched back of feline,
as myself.
Call yourself weak,
understand sex as an object to be stolen,
never given.
Gender role is a form of separation,
built of Adam's rib segregation,
because I celebrate my vagina.
Pussy on a pedestal like peach-fire juice
and your recognition of worth versus want.
How much do you want me,
how much am I worth?
I believe in free enterprise sex
and your cock-envy skews demand
as if supply doesn't have to be consensual.
As if size equals dick.
Penis is not a breed of profanity,
like dick or pussy or cunt.
Vagina and Penis are equals in science text,
but those words don't stiffen nipples like others do.
So what is wrong with america?
If abuse can make you hard,
and I am taught to play along,
what is wrong,
with america?
The subtle perversion of pornography
is frightening, when you consider yourself manly.
Chasing pussy,
imagining cunt as derogatory.
Assigning douchebag as an insult,
underestimating period blood;
a moment of cleansing.
There is a street in London
named Gropecunt Lane,
and I wonder what Jack the Ripper thought about that.
I wonder how I can reclaim masturbation and cunt
as something holy,
if I can call my two fingers a crucifix
and you cannot call me a whore.
If there is such a thing as double standard,
I would hope that it means
I get to come twice before you do,
I would hope it means that you could be a feminist
and I could just be woman.
That I can do what you do,
without the burden of labels
or locker room talk.
You have to understand,
sexism is hiding in the intricacies of your father's breath,
slowly like the heavy tear of your mother's
wooden spoon or black eye.
Slowly like climax
and learning pleasure for each other.
Like the slow wind of your tongue
every time you say cunt or pussy.
Slowly like the groping of my own cunt
and the history of words I owe my sisters.
Like the space between our breath,
shallow and proud,
in the rise of my moon-breas...
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Holy fucking shitting of thee bricks. I've been neglecting my AP lately. Nooooooo. D= It's because I've been working on my Tumblr. I've got 18 followers so far! Also, I've been working full time, so that doesn't leave me with a lot of time to journal or even remote...
Holy fucking shitting of thee bricks. I've been neglecting my AP lately. Nooooooo. D=
It's because I've been working on my Tumblr. I've got 18 followers so far!
Also, I've been working full time, so that doesn't leave me with a lot of time to journal or even remotely come close to writing a poem, an actual good poem that came straight from my heart because I've been distracted, so it wouldn't be real, I guess.
There has been a lot of things going on recently, and things that will be taking place. My new haircut for example, which I'm excited as shit for. Yaye. =) And my room finally getting done next week, and Saturday I might hang out with people, since I haven't hung out with anyone in soo long. It's just been me, work, my room and eating, aha.
My whole head just feels so .. everywhere, you know? I need to clear my head somehow, but I won't be able to until I stop working full time which won't be until the end of august, possibly. D= But I need the money, so I'll be okay.
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I've been trying to work on my spending habits, also. I have my card most of the time and I haven't used it as much as I thought I would since I got it back. There have been 3 or 4 times where I'm just like "Holy fucking shit, this looks amazing, I want it, I have enough money, fuck it .. I'm getting it." Mostly when I buy food. I'm a sucker for good food. & if it's not in my house, I'm gonna go somewhere and buy it. So I guess it could be worse, could be a little better, though. But it's not something I can just stop doing & quit cold turkey. I need time. I'm better than I used to be, so that's good. I don't blow 2 or 300 dollars on things I don't need. Just 10 bucks on Mc.Dicks food that I don't need, lmao. xD
I've also been questioning my sexuality a lot lately, it's really hard to deal with because I don't really have anyone I ...
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Unstraigtenable hair.with white paint stuck in it.
Unstraigtenable hair.with white paint stuck in it.
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It's been on my mind lately. Some (or most) girls often go about it as a thing that is cool to do. You're not accepted until you lose it. I think that sucks. What kind of life style do you want to lead if you go about it thinking that you'll only get gratitude if you sleep with someone. Jeewiz, is that stupid. I may be young but I think of it as something that should be shared for love. The feeling of intimacy shouldn't be something where you need to comple...
It's been on my mind lately. Some (or most) girls often go about it as a thing that is cool to do. You're not accepted until you lose it.
I think that sucks.
What kind of life style do you want to lead if you go about it thinking that you'll only get gratitude if you sleep with someone.
Jeewiz, is that stupid.
I may be young but I think of it as something that should be shared for love. The feeling of intimacy shouldn't be something where you need to complete yourself.
You should already be completed.
But those are just my thoughts.
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Some freak decided it would be fun to get into my page today I have no idea how...and I am not sad enough to care They changed my pics...and other stuff...I would ask why But its obvious...they are jerks with nothing better to do I have a message..if you despise me wtf...tell me, i don,t give a flying crap, but at least give me chance to defend myself if you want me...lol tough you creep ...go play with yourself if your just plain nose and...
Some freak decided it would be fun to get into my page today
I have no idea how...and I am not sad enough to care
They changed my pics...and other stuff...I would ask why
But its obvious...they are jerks with nothing better to do
I have a message..if you despise me wtf...tell me, i don,t give a flying crap, but at least give me chance to defend myself
if you want me...lol tough you creep ...go play with yourself
if your just plain nose and wanna peek n pry in there...omg u sad pathetic looser get a life...
if none of the above apply...get some therapy
either way...fuck right off...and stop polluting my space
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People only know part of me, letting the other part drift off into some other worldy consession of thought. It's funny when people want to tell me that they know me or when they say that they know how I feel. I ain't you, and I ain't ever gonna be like you, so get the fuck over it already. You think you know me, guess again. I've dealt with losses and a lot of extravagant bull shit my entire life and people think that they can change it. Here's a thought, stop trying to understand me, be...
People only know part of me, letting the other part drift off into some other worldy consession of thought. It's funny when people want to tell me that they know me or when they say that they know how I feel. I ain't you, and I ain't ever gonna be like you, so get the fuck over it already. You think you know me, guess again. I've dealt with losses and a lot of extravagant bull shit my entire life and people think that they can change it. Here's a thought, stop trying to understand me, because you never will. I am someone that doesn't care about your petty lies and words, and I don't care what people think of me. If you can't face me and be real about it all, stop being a fuckin idiot and walk away from it. I can do it, and have done it before. I am a person that doesn't care if you think I'm a prick, now tell me something that will change what I think. You can't, so give the fuck up people. I care about some things, but I don't care to think about telling anybody that doesn't matter. You can look at be with utter disgust and judge me because I don't care about much. You want me to care, be important. I am who I am, and no matter who you are, you can't "fix" me or even change me.
My friends that really are my friends, they know enough about me to not try and change who I am. It's for the better that nobody tries. If you don't believe me, don't go bitching about it when it comes time for you to find out that I ain't changing. You want me, then take me for who I am and who I choose to be friends with, as well as understand that my family is something that I take seriously. You don't like that fact, then roll the fuck over and don't forget that I don't give a fuck. Take it how it's said and don't read into it. Can't get the hint, don't talk to me about me, just fuck off.
Sarcasm is my game, and if you don't like it.... can't point at me to blame. I joke and I storm off like nobody's buisness. I ain't just the storm when I flip my switch, I'm also the hurricane and volcanic eruptions in one package. I don't push without being pushed, but when I push back.. you better be ready for what's coming your way. I ain't gonna just go away, I'll be here even when you leave.
For now, fuck it and let's see what happens later on in life. Can't take it for what it is........... guess that's your issue. Take it up with someone who gives a fuck.
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