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I learnt something today, something that made me think about what I am, and who I want. I know that things in life are the most complicated things that anyone can comprehend with. I took the time to realise that, no only am I proud of who I am, but I'm proud of the people who aren't afraid. Loving and caring for people is different than wanting to be with them forever and share your life and your bed with them. It's about being true. Being honest. I want to be honest with the world and I know...
I learnt something today, something that made me think about what I am, and who I want. I know that things in life are the most complicated things that anyone can comprehend with. I took the time to realise that, no only am I proud of who I am, but I'm proud of the people who aren't afraid. Loving and caring for people is different than wanting to be with them forever and share your life and your bed with them. It's about being true. Being honest. I want to be honest with the world and I know that it hurt some people when things like this happen but, I know what I want. What I want is to be with my girl forever. I want to ask something, I don't need an answer but: What do you want? I want people to be happy, to be who they are and be proud of who they love. You see, all these sex maniacs aren't so bad, but they fail to see love. How can you truly know someone through just sex, but how can you know them without? It's the border, the line that you either choose to cross or not. For me I see that this line isn't something I want to cross with more than the person that I am with now. I can't take to see people sad, but I'm sick of hiding away with everything else. I know to some people that what I am going on about makes no sense at all, but to me, it makes perfect sense, and for some reason I can't stop typing. I have never ever wanted anything more that to be out, as they say "out and proud" but so many people in my life have tried to stop me and why? I ask myself why? Still I'm not a 100% sure but I know one thing. I won't let them be in my way or judge me any longer. I'm so out! I'm so gay that no one will ever change me. I have always wanted to be honest and now, look at me. I'm finally being the Salliee that everyone didn't want me to be. I know to some I'm a disappointment, and to others, damn you will understand me more now, but why be mad? I'm still me. I can't stop thinking about the one girl that makes me happy to the point I want to marry her. I want to have a life with her, and make her feel like the princess she is. Why is it that people tell me, you're to close to your male friends to be gay, how are you? They are my FRIENDS, just friends. I love them to pieces but I don't want to jump in their bed. I found my path, I found my true meaning and I want people to know me and have me as their friend. Tab is my guarded princess and I still am the dyke in shinning armour that saved her. I don't know if she truly thanks me for it but, hell I'm so gl...
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August 10, 2009 I bet you cant even remember what happened that day That was the day we met The day i thought my life meant something Boy did everything change January 18, 2010 Everyone knows that day Martin Luther King Jr. Day But to me the start of it all Our first date We snuck out early in the morning You drove and sang to me in the cold Do remember where we went? We went to the mall So many firsts happened that day I will ...
August 10, 2009
I bet you cant even remember what happened that day
That was the day we met
The day i thought my life meant something
Boy did everything change
January 18, 2010
Everyone knows that day
Martin Luther King Jr. Day
But to me the start of it all
Our first date
We snuck out early in the morning
You drove and sang to me in the cold
Do remember where we went?
We went to the mall
So many firsts happened that day
I will always remember the things you'v said and done
February 23, 2010
Who knew being an artist would come in hand
You grabbed me when i was painting
Decided you missed me too much to wait 3 more hours
Ill never know what happened during 6th period that day
The school basement is so much more memorable now
We had our first kiss there
February 26, 2010
Who knew tutoring would be so fun
Or at least thats what my parents that i was doing
We had 2 hours together
Not nearly enough time but we made it work
As soon as school let out we drove to the park
So much for playing on the swings
It poured rain and never stopped
My mom never did believe i fell into a puddle of mud
April 28, 2010
The best date of my life took place
We didnt eat dinner
We didnt watch a movie
Everything was closed
And everyone was asleep
We snuck out at 1 in the morning
You even stole your mom's car
How i love the park
We walked until i fell on you from fear of what was hiding
"Dont worry. I'll protect with my life. Mo matter what." You said
I fell in love that night
You told me you love me
"I love you too" I replied.
We started fooling around but it didnt go far
5 a.m was when my alarm started to ring and thats when we speed home
I didnt make it past 2nd period before i crashed
I missed you so much that day
Your mom forbid you from going to school sense you had the "flu"
June 7, 2010
That night we truely made love come alive
My parents left on vacation and you slept over
Not much sleeping happened
We proved to eachother what our love really means
You were my first
My only
I felt as though the whole world disappeared
It ended too soon
You had to go home before your parents woke up
July 14, 2010
Did you forget?
I stayed up crying
I didnt want to believe what i heard
No answer
I pra...
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As you might know from my page, or from my rant poems, I do not believe in love. (I do not feel like explaining why, go look through my rants, its in there somewhere if you want to know.) But there are some very random people out there, who I do not know, and I didn't have/had very little interactions with these people, and I will never see these people ever again, but for some reason, I am crazily in love with them. Don't try to talk me out of it , or tell me I am wrong. And it's not...
As you might know from my page, or from my rant poems, I do not believe in love. (I do not feel like explaining why, go look through my rants, its in there somewhere if you want to know.)
But there are some very random people out there, who I do not know, and I didn't have/had very little interactions with these people, and I will never see these people ever again, but for some reason, I am crazily in love with them. Don't try to talk me out of it , or tell me I am wrong.
And it's not a crush thing, I don't think about them at night and be like ,"they are so cute!!!" Hell no. It was an instant thing... I just... knew the second I saw them. It confused me the first time, but now I know, it's definitely love. And I have no idea why. And Don't you dare tell me I'm wrong for it.
The first one, is a girl who I actually know her name. We had mutual friends on Facebook, before I deleted my account. This was in June, 2009, when I first discovered i was bi.
Her name was Hannah. I knew her when she was a very dull, shy girl, named Brianna, but she changed her name and her attitude when she switched foster parents. And I had never seen her in person when she was Hannah. But she took many many pictures, and I knew right then and there that I loved her.
I almost fainted when she added me on facebook, a year ago.
But then she deleted me for who knows why, and of course, I was very upset, for who knows why.
And then I actually met this girl. I was in a carpool with an old friend named Cassidy, and they were driving me home, and i got into the car ... and inside it was... Hannah. a very very very straight girl. Oh, but i wanted to die in her arms that day... I met her in person four weeks ago.
The second was a man. Hell, he mustve been 25 years old. This was August, 2009. I saw him from a distance, at Cedar point in Ohio. he had a little boy with him. And I stared at that man, forever it seems. I will never forget that man.
The third one was a girl.
I was in Rite Aid with my grandmother, when a cute girl, maybe 1 or 2 yrs older than me came up to me and asked if I considered myself Scene and if I liked to party. I told her that no, i do not consider myself anything, and i'd party if ppl liked me. And then she told me she liked my hair and my clothes. god, how could such an amazing person say that about me? this was october, 2009.
The fourth was a girl, as well.
She was probably 16 years old, and she w...
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I now know who I love. It was hard to know who it was. But that day that he touched my shoulder. I felt a sparck it was like wow. So now I have feelings for my vampire boy. He is so sweet and now I know who I love it amazing. I love him he is so my type. He's a rocker/want to be emo. We get long every well and he does stuff for me. He and I play around a lot like we wresel. He gives me hug from behind me it seems weird. When he's not looking I stare at him and once I cought him looking at me ...
I now know who I love. It was hard to know who it was. But that day that he touched my shoulder. I felt a sparck it was like wow. So now I have feelings for my vampire boy. He is so sweet and now I know who I love it amazing. I love him he is so my type. He's a rocker/want to be emo. We get long every well and he does stuff for me. He and I play around a lot like we wresel. He gives me hug from behind me it seems weird. When he's not looking I stare at him and once I cought him looking at me like he liked me. He had it in his eyes. We sit very close to each other. He talks to me more than our friends the girls at less. We almost kissed once but he's lips close to my lips. Just by a inch I went to close the space but he moved. But I still love him he's my vampire boy.
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well if you read my previouse journal entry than you know that I planned on asking a new gurl out soon! well I asked her today and.....well, let me tell the story. today was youth class for my church and recently our old church was burnt down. today we were given permission to look around and see what the inside looked like. she and I would alot of times hang out in the back room and goof off on a piano back there. needless to say it is gone now. she wanted to look back there and so ...
well if you read my previouse journal entry than you know that I planned on asking a new gurl out soon! well I asked her today and.....well, let me tell the story.
today was youth class for my church and recently our old church was burnt down. today we were given permission to look around and see what the inside looked like. she and I would alot of times hang out in the back room and goof off on a piano back there. needless to say it is gone now. she wanted to look back there and so I went with her. I let her comment and then told her that I was starting to feel for her. her eyes got wide and she said "no" and ran out the door, leaving me in there alone. I just smiled because I knew that was exactly how she would react so I picked up a pipe off of the ground, broke it, then left the building.
I guess it was a stupid move for me, but it was the only one I knew to make. better luck next time.
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Regardless of what you believe in (or don't believe in), please take the time to read this. I just wrote this in a Facebook note and thought I'd share it here. ------ As a man in the household of...
Regardless of what you believe in (or don't believe in), please take the time to read this. I just wrote this in a Facebook note and thought I'd share it here.
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As a man in the household of the King, I proclaim this loudly:
Daughters of God, may you not equate beauty with cheap perfume and red lipstick. May you not equate love with one night stands and empty and broken promises. This world has cheapened God's grace and your worth, making it into a novelty item to be bought and sold. This should never be. You don't have to live in shame or guilt, because you are already forgiven. Accept that and live in the promises that the Lord reveals to you in His Word. Come to the throne of grace with your prayers, do not think of yourselves as unclean. For the Lord does not see you as yourself, but as covered in the blood of the Lamb, viewing you as pure and righteous.
Your Father's love is unconditional. His desire is that you come home, come to the place where you long for Him as He does you. Don't let broken dreams and buried scars keep you from entering the presence of the Lord. As seen in the Book of Hosea, despite what the world saw, the Lord still redeemed and still pursued.
"Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand." - Proverbs 19:21
And if you are foreign to this love, to this deep, intimate relationship with the Bridegroom, do not hesitate to come to repentance. The Lord desires for the prodigal to come home. Do not let your mind deceive you or your heart condemn you. Learn from the Lord what you were created for. The world may see you as wretched and unclean. But do not dismiss the Lord's great work.
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You know the other night before my art class i went for a walk in town. Along the mall by myself, and you know what i knew it was dangerous. in fact i was waiting for something to happen. Was hoping something would happen. It wasnt that i was suicidal. i wasnt i just lost my purpose somewhere along the way. and i dont wanna live for the sake of being alive? otherwise everything is pointless. and i dont want to have a pointless life. so here i was walking along. in the dark in a dangerous plac...
You know the other night before my art class i went for a walk in town. Along the mall by myself, and you know what i knew it was dangerous. in fact i was waiting for something to happen. Was hoping something would happen. It wasnt that i was suicidal. i wasnt i just lost my purpose somewhere along the way. and i dont wanna live for the sake of being alive? otherwise everything is pointless. and i dont want to have a pointless life. so here i was walking along. in the dark in a dangerous place. hoping that a bus would hit me or maybe someone would mug me. because that way if i survived it id have a reason to live. id have that fight, that zest for life ive been searching for. but nothing happened. nothing ever happens. i wanted to scream. i wanted a knife to my throaght. i wanted to be scared. to feel the need to live. i felt nothing. i felt alone. and i felt empty. and now with all thats happened in recent days i dont want to be alive anymore. i dont want the zest. and i dont want to fight to survive. i want to give in to the pain. i want to bleed out all the hurt. i want the walls painted red. i want the disaster. i want the tragedy i want the suffering to end in one climactic finale. i want to make it hurt on the way and burn out quietly. to fade away and nobody will even notice.
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112 ways to say... I LOVE YOU English - I love you Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief Albanian - Te dua Arabic - Ana behibak (to male) Arabic - Ana behibek (to female) Armenian - Yes kez sirumen Bambara - M'bi fe Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo Bulgarian - Obicham te Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a Catalan - T'estimo Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse ...
112 ways to say... I LOVE YOU
English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe (Thanks Craig)
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
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I Nearly Lost You. And I Have Never Ever Been So Afraid. I've Never Cried So Much In My LIfe. I Never Want To Have To Talk You Down... Never Want To Fear Not Holding You Again To Be Fearful That I Will Never Kiss Your S...
I Nearly Lost You.
And I Have Never Ever Been So Afraid.
I've Never Cried So Much In My LIfe.
I Never Want To Have To Talk You Down...
Never Want To Fear Not Holding You Again
To Be Fearful That I Will Never Kiss Your Soft, Perfect, Lips Again...
To Never Be Able To Hear You Say I Love You Again....
Or To Hear It Back...
I'm Going To Completely Change For You, Baby..
You'll Never Have To Worry Again.
I Promise You.
And I Mean It...
With Everything I Am....
I Love You, And I Will Never Hurt You Like That Again...
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QklF7jqoDaQ&feature=avmsc2 I heard this nice country song on tv and well I guess you can say it would be something someone special might tell me. I dunno really I just mean its so fimilar the words ro this song and its a great country song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QklF7jqoDaQ&feature=avmsc2
I heard this nice country song on tv and well I guess you can say it would be something someone special might tell me. I dunno really I just mean its so fimilar the words ro this song and its a great country song.
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I feel joyful today! My puppy and I were playing just a while ago...she takes my mind off of things I really DO NOT! wanna face right now... R.I.P. PAW PAW BILL :'(
I feel joyful today! My puppy and I were playing just a while ago...she takes my mind off of things I really DO NOT! wanna face right now...
R.I.P. PAW PAW BILL :'(
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Hi it is been awhile since I wrote a journal, funny things now that I lost all the poems I have written I feel like breaking necks. Inside those poems was all the feelins I could not say to the people. I thought I was finally free but noooooo, I had to lose the file. at this point I really don't care about anything. It took me a lot to get a hold of a computer for me to do this stupidity!, anyways, I been lisening to this song lately especially when I can't go to sleep at night, somehow, ...
Hi it is been awhile since I wrote a journal, funny things now that I lost all the poems I have written I feel like breaking necks. Inside those poems was all the feelins I could not say to the people. I thought I was finally free but noooooo, I had to lose the file. at this point I really don't care about anything. It took me a lot to get a hold of a computer for me to do this stupidity!, anyways,
I been lisening to this song lately especially when I can't go to sleep at night, somehow, it calms the mosters that hunt me at night,enjoy cause it is a really goood song.
it must had been love
Something you should know about It Must Have Been Love Lyrics
Title: Roxette - It Must Have Been Love lyrics
Artist: Roxette Lyrics
Visitors: 35268 visitors have hited It Must Have Been Love Lyrics since June 03, 2010.
Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm
And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...
It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows
It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out
and here is the music video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wny4qQWdunI
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Well, I broke up with my boyfriend two weeks ago because, he did something stupid boys suck i know :'(... Well, my best friend of 17yrs (in August) just told me he loves me and always have so we are going to try and start dating... My ex live 1,510 miles away My Best Friend: 30 min so, i hope everything goes great with my friend!
Well, I broke up with my boyfriend two weeks ago because, he did something stupid boys suck i know :'(... Well, my best friend of 17yrs (in August) just told me he loves me and always have so we are going to try and start dating...
My ex live 1,510 miles away
My Best Friend: 30 min
so, i hope everything goes great with my friend!
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..I just found out..some one who was close to me..wants to kill them self..I've lost..a lot of people that had been close to me to suicide..and I dont think I can take it anymore..If he does so,then I doubt I can handle it..If I cant stop him..I dont even want to think about it now..Its already starting to upset me and my chests starting to hurt again..so many I should go..anyways..bye guys..
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Today I am battling with my thoughts, this seems to happen to me now and then, I am normally quite strong at pushing the thoughts out my mind and carrying on like it doesnt matter. But today is different, im really battling, my friends seem to be so far away and so uncaring of late, not that they mean to be im sure, but they are right now, just when I need them most. But another day will dawn tomorrow and il still be here I hope and il carry on with a smile on my lips and a ...
Today I am battling with my thoughts, this seems to happen to me now and then, I am normally quite strong at pushing the thoughts out my mind and carrying on like it doesnt matter.
But today is different, im really battling, my friends seem to be so far away and so uncaring of late, not that they mean to be im sure, but they are right now, just when I need them most.
But another day will dawn tomorrow and il still be here I hope and il carry on with a smile on my lips and a twinkle in my eye, even if it is really just a glint of a tear.
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by An Empty World
on Jul 26 11:18 PM, In Anger, Death, Hurt, Life, Love, Pain, Personal, Real, Sadness, Suicide.
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Dear Zach, I miss you and everything you were to me. I miss your smile, your odd sayings, your cute gestures, and your unbelievable talent at making me laugh. You were there for me through so much of my life. Even on that last day you were there... asking ME how I was. I remember everything you said to me that day, EVERYTHING. I even remember how happy I was being back in that spot with you back to that closeness from our childhood days. Zach... when I think about what you d...
Dear Zach,
I miss you and everything you were to me. I miss your smile, your odd sayings, your cute gestures, and your unbelievable talent at making me laugh. You were there for me through so much of my life. Even on that last day you were there... asking ME how I was. I remember everything you said to me that day, EVERYTHING. I even remember how happy I was being back in that spot with you back to that closeness from our childhood days.
Zach... when I think about what you did and how you supposedly never planned it, it hurts me. Do you regret it? After you did it, did you think "Oh shit... no!" or was there a sense of relief? Was it really what you wanted or did you just act on anger and hurt?
I should've known. I should have noticed that look on your face and read into it a lot closer. I should have told you how important you were to everyone including me and promised to call you that night.
Your poor brother. What he saw... it will forever be etched into my brain. It's a nightmare that I can't stop living inside my head. And Im sure it's 100 times worse for him. I closemy eyes and instead of seeing that happy smiling face, I see what he saw... and it kills me inside to know that that was you. My Zachariah Micheal Gerald McDougal.
Everyone claims to have a different piece to the puzzle, some new information that nobody else knows... something that will explain to everyone else, what the truth was. But I know you did it on purpose... the shed was short... if you had any second thoughts about the pain, the loss of air, you would've simply placed your feet back onto the ground. And thats what hurts me the most.
I'll never forget you, or the way I felt about you. And your funeral will never be erased from my mind. The enormous ammount of people who loved you... I just wish you would've known that hun.
I love you buddy, and I hope you're having a wonderful time in heaven and/or beyond. You deserve that break you so desperately attempted to get, and I'm sorry you felt that was the only way out. See you on the other side, man.
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Rules: 1.Choose a anime/manga pairing to start out- my pick: MadaIta (Madara Itachi) 2.get Mp3,Ipod,media player and set it on shuffle 3.write drabbles for that pairing that relates to the song. As soon as the ends you stop writing and no planing or skipping songs it takes the fun away. 4. Do aproximetly 5 no less. *NOte: By the way peopel i dont know how to write drabbles so forgive me for my writign mistake and grammer mistakes* Dancing with tears in my eyes by ...
Rules:
1.Choose a anime/manga pairing to start out- my pick: MadaIta (Madara Itachi)
2.get Mp3,Ipod,media player and set it on shuffle
3.write drabbles for that pairing that relates to the song. As soon as the ends you stop writing and no planing or skipping songs it takes the fun away.
4. Do aproximetly 5 no less.
*NOte: By the way peopel i dont know how to write drabbles so forgive me for my writign mistake and grammer mistakes*
Dancing with tears in my eyes by Ke$ha:
Madara wakes up laying on the couch with akillee hangover not rembering what happend last night, He goes to his room stumbling slightly to his room openign the door and sees a lump i his bed seeing 'him' laying there. little naked 10 year old itachi 'fuck...'
Speechless By Lady Gaga:
"Itachi the truth is i..love you' He saud staring at the 6 year old blushing light pink " I know you do mom and dad love me too" Madara automaticly hung his hed sweat droping but got over it and pulled the little 6 year old uchiha in his lap "not that kind of love tachi" itachi looked up at his sensei "What kind of love do you mean sensei?" Madara shook his head "Never mind itachi ill tell you later". Unfortuntely Later came sooner then expected having to show how that 'candy' itachi found worked whcih clearly the candy was a box of condoms Itachi found under Madaras bed.
Bad Romance By Lady Gaga:
"Why did you rape me ..?" 10 year old itachi asked facign the front door "Itachi i told you i was drunk and i didnt know what i was doing..I didnt mena for it to be like this i wanted to show you that i loved you but not like this..im so sorry.." said a still hungover Madara staring at his students back. Itachi walked out the door closing it behind him walking back to his house uncofotably. By the time itachi got to his room Madara was there waiting for him, But Itachi ignored him and went to take a shower coming back otu few minutes later finding madara in his room still, Madara looded at Itachi and hugged him "I'm sorry."
Big Weenie By Eminem:
"Mean Sensei" little 10 year old Itachi pouted at his sensei after having him flick him in the forehead "It's not my fault your not being respectful" Itachi jsut stuck his tounge out at his sensei which only caused Madara to flick Itachi in the nose "ow! sensei is a big meanie" whcih only caused Itachi to pout more , MAdara only tunred away from the pouting weasel causing ITachi to whine on t...
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When it is time for me to write for the yeti or other places I'm asked to write for, I spend my evenings outside perched in my comfy chair, nestled beneath a tent of trees, feeling the evening breeze as I listen to the songs of life flowing from the birds. It is here that I can ponder and reflect on the teachings given to us and find something that I hope touches the hearts of readers. This week, I pondered many days, waiting for that magic verse to pop into my head and then I commence to wr...
When it is time for me to write for the yeti or other places I'm asked to write for, I spend my evenings outside perched in my comfy chair, nestled beneath a tent of trees, feeling the evening breeze as I listen to the songs of life flowing from the birds. It is here that I can ponder and reflect on the teachings given to us and find something that I hope touches the hearts of readers. This week, I pondered many days, waiting for that magic verse to pop into my head and then I commence to writing. However, it wasn't a verse this time, that kept coming to my mind, but people. Those people new and old that have befriended me over time or done something special for me at a time when I needed it the most. Often it was just a simple "hi how are you," that made the difference of my day, and it was all those people that kept running trough my mind as I sat drinking my mountain dew; and it was, that I became quite humbled, even to tears.
I personally have had many a dark hour in my short but eventful 44 years. Some of them so dark, that I thought I would not survive, yet, it was during that time that I received one of my greatest gifts, those who did hold me up and call me friend. Some of them I remembered, even went to great personal lengths, to lift my head up and carry me until I could and can begin to carry myself. It is the very thought of those people that cause me to dwell upon others, those that do not personally know me but in the way of friendship, have touched my life. The neighbor that waves and smiles, a drive by hug or comment or thought given over the internet, a stranger offering to carry my bags, are just a few of the examples I could share. So many times I have been blessed with the acts of kindness and friendship from others that I could never begin to count them all, and I find myself a truly rich person, being filled by the light of Christ through others, through friends.
In the New Testament, John 15:12-15 it states: "This is my commandment, that ye love one another as I have loved you. Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends, ye are my friends if ye do what I command you. Henceforth I call you not servants for the servant knoweth not what his Lord doeth, but I have called you friends for all things I have heard of my father, I have made known unto you.'
He calls us his friends, have you ever thought of your relationship with Christ in those terms, "I am his friend." If...
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My mother was 19 when she had me. When she gave birth to me, my biological father was at a party with Shiela (my future former step mom). My mother was more heartbroken when she found out he used her for money. That she was a mere bet and he denied to be the father. Called my mom a harlot. It made her really sad. She met this man at a job she was currently working at the time. He really thought she was pretty and wanted to get to know her. Soon they started...
My mother was 19 when she had me. When she gave birth to me, my biological father was at a party with Shiela (my future former step mom). My mother was more heartbroken when she found out he used her for money. That she was a mere bet and he denied to be the father. Called my mom a harlot. It made her really sad. She met this man at a job she was currently working at the time. He really thought she was pretty and wanted to get to know her. Soon they started to fall in love. He finally got to go over her house one day. He saw how she had no furniture really. That she had no bed but I had a crib though. She barely had food for her. She sacrificed everything for me and my dad falled more in love with her. Later on he bought her furniture and started to buy food for her and me. He bought me clothes and toys. He spoiled me. He loved me like if I was his own daughter. Then he finally proposed to her and she said yes. I am the only kid in my house who never had yard sale clothes. I always have brand new clothes. My dad has spoiled me more than my sisters and tries to show love for my mother that no man has (my mother used to date guys who were druggies. luckly this man isn't) He buys her roses for her b-day and show her love. He even loved her when she cheated on him twice with the same man. My father really loves my mom, my sisters, and especially me. He never lets me be around relatives who doesn't see me as their fleshen blood. It makes me really happy to know that this man has made my mom's life great because she never really had a great life.
I am proud to have a great father figure and even if he does get on my nerves at times about dumb stuff. I still love him and happy that I have a father like him because I won't end up like my other half-siblings who doens't live with me. I won't be a druggie or a harlot. I will be a woman who was raised up morally right and with love.
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Again.....i have fallen in love. Head over heels in love. Worse then ever before. How is this possible? He is so different them all the guys i have ever met. He is amazing. When I hear his voice, my heart beats wildly and i get butterflies. His laugh is music to my ears and his smile lights up my whole world. He is so kind and sweet to me. He tells he I'm beautiful and that he loves me every single day. And he'll do almost anything to prove it. With my other guys...i still felt depressed and ...
Again.....i have fallen in love. Head over heels in love. Worse then ever before. How is this possible? He is so different them all the guys i have ever met. He is amazing. When I hear his voice, my heart beats wildly and i get butterflies. His laugh is music to my ears and his smile lights up my whole world. He is so kind and sweet to me. He tells he I'm beautiful and that he loves me every single day. And he'll do almost anything to prove it. With my other guys...i still felt depressed and cold. I was still mean and not very playful and i never laughed and smiled like i do with him. Before i met him i was angry, fearless, depressed, hurt, and suicidal at times because i thought i was so fucked up and miserable. I never use to be able to see the brighter side of things. Now im happy. Now im afraid t lose him, im afraid to not wake up in the morning. now i dream and now i hope. He has said the so sweet of things that i've cried. He apologized for making me cry. But im glad that he was able to. I'm not afraid to cry in front of him. I want to. I want him to kiss away my tears and tell me everything is going to be okay when im sad. I'm not very good at expressing my feelings or showing then. But for him im willing to try. I want to be all i can for him. He has turned me into a complete marshmallow....I write and think like a lovesick puppy. And i am. i don't want this to ever end. I want to feel like this forever. I am no longer a heartless bitch who loves trouble and blood..well i still love blood i just don't love causing it He is so calm and he calms me. He makes me smile all the time. My friends as whats gotten into me and i haven't tolled them yet. I've tolled my sister and she is so happy for me. I could go on forever and ever talking about him and how much i care for him but im tired and on the phone with him...ttyl
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sometimes i feel likei'm all alone.. and no matter how much i scream and cry nobody hears me.. i'm afraid i'm going to end up alone in life .. i'm not pretty maybe i can take a pretty picture but i'm a fat ugly worthless piece of shit nobody cares about and nobody will ever like enough to go out with me.. they always say ur better as a friend.. maybe i'm just better gone
sometimes i feel likei'm all alone.. and no matter how much i scream and cry nobody hears me.. i'm afraid i'm going to end up alone in life .. i'm not pretty maybe i can take a pretty picture but i'm a fat ugly worthless piece of shit nobody cares about and nobody will ever like enough to go out with me.. they always say ur better as a friend.. maybe i'm just better gone
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I never really understood the meaning of 'I love you' until a couple of months ago...Even now I'm not completely sure on the meaning. But, I know that I have a greater understanding of it more so now, then I did last year. Last year, the drama of my 'relationship' with Robert (if that's what you want to even call it) was overwhelming and I can't believe I thought I might actually have loved him. Now I realize it was sorrow and wanting that made me believe that I 'loved' him. And I'm...
I never really understood the meaning of 'I love you' until a couple of months ago...Even now I'm not completely sure on the meaning. But, I know that I have a greater understanding of it more so now, then I did last year.
Last year, the drama of my 'relationship' with Robert (if that's what you want to even call it) was overwhelming and I can't believe I thought I might actually have loved him. Now I realize it was sorrow and wanting that made me believe that I 'loved' him. And I'm so glad that I realized that I never did care for him truly before I gave him the most sacred part of me.
On August 4th, will be my 4th month anniversary with my boyfriend David. He is the reason I believe I have a much greater understanding of what 'I love you' truly means.
David and I both love each other greatly. Both of us gave a part of us that we can never get back to each other. I always thought that I would be nervous and too scared to do anything to actually give that part of me up...but with David I felt...inflamed.
I have never felt this much sorrow of losing someone before. I have never even imagined that I would care so much that he ignored me out of stress and depression that I would even be stressed and depressed. I can't be happy unless he is. If one of us is sad, both of us is sad...I just realized this...
But never before have I truly felt this much of a connection with someone, even before the physical connection came in, I felt like this...
I truly believe that if 'Soul mates' exist...that I've found mine. And I know a lot of you will say that I'm too young to understand. But you don't have a clue on how I feel with David...It's too hard to describe...
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‘We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.’ Most people don’t take this quote into mind, people want perfect. But what is perfect? If perfect is being beautiful is having the money and the ego to look flawless well guess what, I’m not perfect. But I wouldn’t want to be perfect; I want someone to love me for me and not for my makeup. Think about this next time someone tells you they love you. Don’t think they are...
‘We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.’
Most people don’t take this quote into mind, people want perfect. But what is perfect? If perfect is being beautiful is having the money and the ego to look flawless well guess what, I’m not perfect. But I wouldn’t want to be perfect; I want someone to love me for me and not for my makeup.
Think about this next time someone tells you they love you. Don’t think they are lying because everyone’s got something about them another person will love. So accept the love, because everyone worth it. Everyone deserves to be happy, so be it! You only live once and if you don’t believe in yourself what kind of life is that? We all need to stop trying to be something we’re not and start embracing what we are. Don’t be fake, let a guy/girl see the real you. At the end of the day that’s what they’re going to love more than looks, they will see you as their form of perfect. So do the same. Don’t be vain, take the time to get to know a sweet person and don’t just judge on looks. The best people will be the ones you haven’t taken the time to look at; they will be the ones that don’t always have the attention set on them. I hope we’re all learned something from this, I have.
Good Luck
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It's soooooo effing different here.... I miss home, here money is called pounds exepct the abbreviation is l.. Im always dizzy, there are NO BENCHES!!!!!!!!!!! Even the computers are different.... pple are rude bc they dont say sorry or excuse me...... i miss home.. im sleeping on the floor, i slept till 2 london time!!! i just wanna go home...... o and guys, i can get on anytime cause the compuiters are free, i just cant call.. Immiss u guys sooooooooooo...
It's soooooo effing different here.... I miss home, here money is called pounds exepct the abbreviation is l.. Im always dizzy, there are NO BENCHES!!!!!!!!!!! Even the computers are different.... pple are rude bc they dont say sorry or excuse me...... i miss home.. im sleeping on the floor, i slept till 2 london time!!! i just wanna go home...... o and guys, i can get on anytime cause the compuiters are free, i just cant call.. Immiss u guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much, here are some links to express th3e feelings i have:
http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=§ion=&global=1&q=sad+and+crying#/drr8ud
http://browse.deviantart.com/?q=sad and crying&order=9&offset=48#/d28xyjp
http://browse.deviantart.com/?q=sad and crying&order=9&offset=72#/d2b7sdo
im gonna log out now,
peace and llove,
Emily
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