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My baby girl, Sakura. Thank you to Gauntletier for helping me come up with the name
My baby girl, Sakura. Thank you to Gauntletier for helping me come up with the name
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I learnt something today, something that made me think about what I am, and who I want. I know that things in life are the most complicated things that anyone can comprehend with. I took the time to realise that, no only am I proud of who I am, but I'm proud of the people who aren't afraid. Loving and caring for people is different than wanting to be with them forever and share your life and your bed with them. It's about being true. Being honest. I want to be honest with the world and I know...
I learnt something today, something that made me think about what I am, and who I want. I know that things in life are the most complicated things that anyone can comprehend with. I took the time to realise that, no only am I proud of who I am, but I'm proud of the people who aren't afraid. Loving and caring for people is different than wanting to be with them forever and share your life and your bed with them. It's about being true. Being honest. I want to be honest with the world and I know that it hurt some people when things like this happen but, I know what I want. What I want is to be with my girl forever. I want to ask something, I don't need an answer but: What do you want? I want people to be happy, to be who they are and be proud of who they love. You see, all these sex maniacs aren't so bad, but they fail to see love. How can you truly know someone through just sex, but how can you know them without? It's the border, the line that you either choose to cross or not. For me I see that this line isn't something I want to cross with more than the person that I am with now. I can't take to see people sad, but I'm sick of hiding away with everything else. I know to some people that what I am going on about makes no sense at all, but to me, it makes perfect sense, and for some reason I can't stop typing. I have never ever wanted anything more that to be out, as they say "out and proud" but so many people in my life have tried to stop me and why? I ask myself why? Still I'm not a 100% sure but I know one thing. I won't let them be in my way or judge me any longer. I'm so out! I'm so gay that no one will ever change me. I have always wanted to be honest and now, look at me. I'm finally being the Salliee that everyone didn't want me to be. I know to some I'm a disappointment, and to others, damn you will understand me more now, but why be mad? I'm still me. I can't stop thinking about the one girl that makes me happy to the point I want to marry her. I want to have a life with her, and make her feel like the princess she is. Why is it that people tell me, you're to close to your male friends to be gay, how are you? They are my FRIENDS, just friends. I love them to pieces but I don't want to jump in their bed. I found my path, I found my true meaning and I want people to know me and have me as their friend. Tab is my guarded princess and I still am the dyke in shinning armour that saved her. I don't know if she truly thanks me for it but, hell I'm so gl...
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Okay, so for a couple of days I've been sleeping with my playlist playing in the background. At night I leave my iPod on the dock and sleep. Obviously when the playlist ends the music will stop playing since I don't have it set on repeat. The first time I did this, I woke up the next morning to find the iPod next to the dock...
Okay, so for a couple of days I've been sleeping with my playlist playing in the background. At night I leave my iPod on the dock and sleep. Obviously when the playlist ends the music will stop playing since I don't have it set on repeat.
The first time I did this, I woke up the next morning to find the iPod next to the dock instead of on it! I put it on and it was playing a song from another playlist. Weird, maybe I got annoyed and took out my iPod while sleeping AND changed the song! Or there's a ghost in my room who just doesn't enjoy my taste in music.
Last night, I did it again. Slept while my iPod was on the dock. I remember I got annoyed because the music kept on waking me up and paused the song with the remote which is always next to me. I'm sure I would never reach out to the dock to remove the iPod, that's just too much effort and the 'awake' me would never bother (maybe the 'asleep' me is less lazy?). However, I woke up this morning to find that my iPod, once again, had been removed from the dock!
Either I need to record myself while sleeping or that ghost really needs to tell me what kind of music it likes!
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well if you read my previouse journal entry than you know that I planned on asking a new gurl out soon! well I asked her today and.....well, let me tell the story. today was youth class for my church and recently our old church was burnt down. today we were given permission to look around and see what the inside looked like. she and I would alot of times hang out in the back room and goof off on a piano back there. needless to say it is gone now. she wanted to look back there and so ...
well if you read my previouse journal entry than you know that I planned on asking a new gurl out soon! well I asked her today and.....well, let me tell the story.
today was youth class for my church and recently our old church was burnt down. today we were given permission to look around and see what the inside looked like. she and I would alot of times hang out in the back room and goof off on a piano back there. needless to say it is gone now. she wanted to look back there and so I went with her. I let her comment and then told her that I was starting to feel for her. her eyes got wide and she said "no" and ran out the door, leaving me in there alone. I just smiled because I knew that was exactly how she would react so I picked up a pipe off of the ground, broke it, then left the building.
I guess it was a stupid move for me, but it was the only one I knew to make. better luck next time.
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So I'm really bored. Ask me some questions. I would love to answer anything (:
So
I'm really bored.
Ask me some questions.
I would love to answer anything (:
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The basic point of me actually writing a journal entry is because what's going on isn't pure fiction or the will of my own mind. It's because that life happens, and in life it's all real, even when we don't want it to be. And, unfortunately, this is real. I'm terrified for a friend. Now, this is where you think, "Well, genius, if you're a good person you help them through it or go see them. You listen.". But what do you do whenever they can't open up anymore and you honestly have no ...
The basic point of me actually writing a journal entry is because what's going on isn't pure fiction or the will of my own mind. It's because that life happens, and in life it's all real, even when we don't want it to be. And, unfortunately, this is real.
I'm terrified for a friend. Now, this is where you think, "Well, genius, if you're a good person you help them through it or go see them. You listen.". But what do you do whenever they can't open up anymore and you honestly have no way of seeing them?
I can't and don't want to go into details, but that's the only way to actually understand any of this. So I guess I'll leave you with this random, pointless question to ponder:
How can you spend an eternity with someone if eternity never begins?
Think about it, and leave me a comment telling me your response or idea from the question.
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So many songs are stuck in my head. they're really hard to get rid of and they are irritating me. I think I'll probably learn all of the lyrics without even looking at the lyric sheet damn it! One of the songs stuck in my head is: Fly me too the moon Geez you wanna have spring in jupiter? you just can't be normal!
So many songs are stuck in my head.
they're really hard to get rid of and they are irritating me.
I think I'll probably learn all of the lyrics without even looking at the lyric sheet damn it!
One of the songs stuck in my head is:
Fly me too the moon
Geez you wanna have spring in jupiter?
you just can't be normal!
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QklF7jqoDaQ&feature=avmsc2 I heard this nice country song on tv and well I guess you can say it would be something someone special might tell me. I dunno really I just mean its so fimilar the words ro this song and its a great country song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QklF7jqoDaQ&feature=avmsc2
I heard this nice country song on tv and well I guess you can say it would be something someone special might tell me. I dunno really I just mean its so fimilar the words ro this song and its a great country song.
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Well, I broke up with my boyfriend two weeks ago because, he did something stupid boys suck i know :'(... Well, my best friend of 17yrs (in August) just told me he loves me and always have so we are going to try and start dating... My ex live 1,510 miles away My Best Friend: 30 min so, i hope everything goes great with my friend!
Well, I broke up with my boyfriend two weeks ago because, he did something stupid boys suck i know :'(... Well, my best friend of 17yrs (in August) just told me he loves me and always have so we are going to try and start dating...
My ex live 1,510 miles away
My Best Friend: 30 min
so, i hope everything goes great with my friend!
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I will be gone from tommarow to the 8th of August to go to a camp with no internet. Bye guys!
I will be gone from tommarow to the 8th of August to go to a camp with no internet. Bye guys!
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ok most of you don't know this but I see future events. clairvoyant i believe is the word. anyways, I have seen that my sister hayley is going to meet someone tomorrow and i suspect there are going to be more poems written by her about this. lots of reading for me. i love reading her poems but i have feeling she is going to write A LOT. im glad she may have her muse back though.
ok most of you don't know this but I see future events. clairvoyant i believe is the word.
anyways, I have seen that my sister hayley is going to meet someone tomorrow and i suspect there are going to be more poems written by her about this. lots of reading for me. i love reading her poems but i have feeling she is going to write A LOT. im glad she may have her muse back though.
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you know what let them diss me, go ahead make fun of me, go ahead say you aint my friend, i just dont giva a fuck what you think u gonna get me pissed All kinds of really mean things about me Cause you're a meany, a meany But it's only cause you're really jealous of me Cause I'm what you wanna be So you just look like a idiot When you say these mean things Cause it's too easy to see You're really just a big weenie, big weenie
you know what let them diss me, go ahead make fun of me, go ahead say you aint my friend, i just dont giva a fuck
what you think u gonna get me pissed
All kinds of really mean things about me
Cause you're a meany, a meany
But it's only cause you're really jealous of me
Cause I'm what you wanna be
So you just look like a idiot
When you say these mean things
Cause it's too easy to see
You're really just a big weenie, big weenie
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Ok I know this is gonna sound weird but I had temporary amnesia. Ya know when you forget a certian ammount of stuff. Well I wasnt sure how I acted in that time but I do remember how I slammed my head. I was swimming and I tried to flip backwards underwater then SLAM! I hit the bottom floor. My parents noticed I didnt put my head up and took me out. I wake up and my parents told me what happened and they said I was asking what was my name and where was I. Then they took me to bed and I fe...
Ok I know this is gonna sound weird but I had temporary amnesia. Ya know when you forget a certian ammount of stuff. Well I wasnt sure how I acted in that time but I do remember how I slammed my head. I was swimming and I tried to flip backwards underwater then SLAM! I hit the bottom floor. My parents noticed I didnt put my head up and took me out.
I wake up and my parents told me what happened and they said I was asking what was my name and where was I. Then they took me to bed and I fell fast asleep and woke up with a MAJOR head ache and remembered everything, honestly THANK GOD! Cause I really thought I wouldnt remember who I was and who I loved the most. I hit my head pretty bad so I have it under ice but I have never been so scared I thought my memory would be lost forever.
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Me and one of my best friends went to go see inception today. We got all worked up over the ending. When he spun his dohickey, and the screen cut black before we could see if it would fall. What if what we think is real.....really isnt hmmmmmm.................................................................RANDOM DANCING
Me and one of my best friends went to go see inception today. We got all worked up over the ending. When he spun his dohickey, and the screen cut black before we could see if it would fall. What if what we think is real.....really isnt hmmmmmm.................................................................RANDOM DANCING
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I have to say there's something about music that I adore. I feel like a different person, and I feel like I can do whatever I want to. But, the feeling is something weird. I don't know what the feeling is, or how to explain it. It's just something inside of me that makes me want to smile, and LIVE the songs; as in when I live, I want to hear the song wherever I go. I want to see the things I see in music videos from the music I listen to. Call me crazy, but there's something about mu...
I have to say there's something about music that I adore. I feel like a different person, and I feel like I can do whatever I want to. But, the feeling is something weird. I don't know what the feeling is, or how to explain it. It's just something inside of me that makes me want to smile, and LIVE the songs; as in when I live, I want to hear the song wherever I go. I want to see the things I see in music videos from the music I listen to.
Call me crazy, but there's something about music that I just simply cannot ignore. For example, this song I'm listening to at the moment-If I'm james dean, you're audrey hepburn=Sleeping with Sirens- and the feeling I get when I listen to this song is explainable. It's in a good way, though.
To me, music defines each oone of us. No matter what genre it is, there's always a song that describes who you are, what stage of life you're going through, your emotions, etc. It's because we've ALL been through this; we ALL have gone through the same thing at one point or another. We all want to be free, we all don't want to be hurt, we all have the same feelings about life. We're all the same, but yet so very different.
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Hey people. Lori here =). Moved in new house and is so happy. Piper loves her new room. We lived by a beautiful lake now and she has a great view of it. Nick and me have a huge room! and and big bathroom! I love it. I took a 3 hour bath last night. Nick took a hour long shower. (trust me that's long for him!) So we love the house and I will try to put pics up if my pomputer isn't mean about it. Well I love you guys and Good morning by the way Its 8:30 right now. so Good morning!
Hey people. Lori here =). Moved in new house and is so happy. Piper loves her new room. We lived by a beautiful lake now and she has a great view of it. Nick and me have a huge room! and and big bathroom! I love it. I took a 3 hour bath last night. Nick took a hour long shower. (trust me that's long for him!) So we love the house and I will try to put pics up if my pomputer isn't mean about it. Well I love you guys and Good morning by the way Its 8:30 right now. so Good morning!
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We all think that life is just the act of living. I think that life is more then just the act of living.The way that society looks at life is somewhat strange at times.We all are children at one point in our lives and we all had vivid imaginations.We all dream of being someone important or maybe even famous one day.Most of us have maybe dreamed of becoming a rocket scient...
We all think that life is just the act of living. I think that life is more then just the act of living.The way that society looks at life is somewhat strange at times.We all are children at one point in our lives and we all had vivid imaginations.We all dream of being someone important or maybe even famous one day.Most of us have maybe dreamed of becoming a rocket scientist and then some.Some children dream of being astronauts and being able to fly to the moon and beyond.
We then hit our adolescences and I just don't know what happens.I know that when I hit that part of my life I went down hill and some. I decided that I was going to go out and start having sex and experimenting with smoking cigarettes. I really at that point lost most of my imagination and really lost site of my dreams or at least what I thought where my dreams. I have had many dreams in my day on what I would like to do or at least what I thought that I would have wanted to do. So far I have not been all that successful at really any of the dreams that I remembering having as a kid or even as an adolescence.
Welcome to adulthood and welcome to the life of total misunderstandings. We as a society have a thinking process that can and almost always does get us into to more trouble then what it is worth. We think that the meaning of being an adult is for the most part being grown up boring individuals. Needless to say that even though we think that we should be boring we actually cause conflict within ourselves and others. Most of us use the term "we have to much on our plates to handle" So if this is the case then the qyestion would be " Are we boring or just stupid?"
With this in mind why do we act like a stuck up, self indulgent society. For the most part people have the thinking that they do not want to get involved in anyone else s life or current situations. As far as the self indulgent aspect of things. We for the most part think of only the things that we want and not the things that we need or need to ta...
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Yes i am leaving Hiya dudes and womans i am leaving for a WHOLE WEEK holy crap haha my cousin is visiting so i am gonna be gone so we can do sum fun shit. haha well i guess if u care BY! Black rose, I LOVE U! haha
Yes i am leaving
Hiya dudes and womans i am leaving for a WHOLE WEEK holy crap haha my cousin is visiting so i am gonna be gone so we can do sum fun shit. haha well i guess if u care BY!
Black rose,
I LOVE U! haha
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Have you ever been in-love one day and then one day later you’re in tears over it? Not happy tears of joy, not tears of I -can’t-believe-I’m-with him. Tears of pain. You see your man, with a bunch of friends, happy. And you think to yourself, “Why can’t I make him that happy? Why isn’t he all excited and smiling when he’s with me?” But you can’t do anything about it because you think you’ll feel too needy, too clingy. But it shouldn’t seem that way since your his girlfriend, his c...
Have you ever been in-love one day and then one day later you’re in tears over it? Not happy tears of joy, not tears of I -can’t-believe-I’m-with him. Tears of pain. You see your man, with a bunch of friends, happy. And you think to yourself, “Why can’t I make him that happy? Why isn’t he all excited and smiling when he’s with me?”
But you can’t do anything about it because you think you’ll feel too needy, too clingy. But it shouldn’t seem that way since your his girlfriend, his companion, his lover. You see him with his friends, and this chick and he’s all happy. You say, “Okay, yea, whatever. That’s fine, he’s happy, I’m happy.” You’re jealous of the girl he met, you want to be her. But you can’t.
“He’s mine, I have nothing to worry about,” You reassure yourself. Yet that jealousy wont fade away, it clings onto you like a dog on a cat.
You go home with him, get in bed. And he falls asleep after saying I love you with a good-night kiss. And you realize you’re in pain. You’ve never liked who you were, never felt accomplished in your life. And you have this amazing man laying next to you in bed, and you realized you’re not worth it. You’re too boring, to plain and dull. So why is he with me? You think with despair.
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Man I got so much plan for my Aaron Drake Vampire Hunter Chronicles it's crazy. I'm first working on a set of stories cut from the frist book I'm calling the cut inbetween chronicles. I fleat at the time these stories wasn't fit for my series but now I'm making them. I begainning with Entitlement already up on my page follow by two more Home set after Club Midnight and is the frist story not told through Aaron's eyes but by one of the other chractors Rocky. This story t...
Man I got so much plan for my Aaron Drake Vampire Hunter Chronicles it's crazy. I'm first working on a set of stories cut from the frist book I'm calling the cut inbetween chronicles. I fleat at the time these stories wasn't fit for my series but now I'm making them.
I begainning with Entitlement already up on my page follow by two more Home set after Club Midnight and is the frist story not told through Aaron's eyes but by one of the other chractors Rocky. This story tells how Rocky retruns home to his family's home and communty and must help free it from vampires and werewolfs gangs and at the sametime has to face the pain of his pass and the afterness of what happan to him by the hands of the Child's Human Servents. This is follow by Second set after the Blinding that tells how Braid became part of the Hunter Squard and second master vampire of the city and how he and Aaron jions to find who higher a killer for higher to kill Dave who may die wild at the sametime going after him to amke sure he don' t kill Dave and to make him pay.
This is the biggest thing I took out and although i got deals with all that will happan. I need more time this was a mini series set after Darkness Rising and lead up to the chronicle after that. It would deal with Aaron battling a new vampire demon call Zetharx the Master arch foe who wants to take over as the new master of evil and thinking the Master is weaken or dead will use his froces and powers to try and kill him to take over the Dark Alliance as the Master in spirt from not wanting him to win helps Ron as he's repowerings/rebrithing still in the pit and him trying to kill Aaron who battles him and his froces.
This mini series would aslo deal with Shasta's rising darkside Zexthrax using his powers to try and make her evil and trun to his side and introude a half demons witch female who helps Aarona and falls for Shasta who's really a spy for Zexthrax who is to kill Aaron and keep him a head over him and make sure he fells.
After many battles it would be a big one were the Master in Ron body jionining with Aaron due to him getting a power that's not good or evil and becomming god like and after he's killed by good and dark magic and the power retrun the half demon who gives into her demons side and trun aid Zexthrax takes over his froces and begins effords to rebrith him making Aaron and the others has to take her out to end the madness...
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Well we at SMASHED have been moving, so to speak, at the speed of light. Okay not literally - the real reason for this post is because we have some cool news! SMASHED is creating a literary magazine for kids 11 and under. Its called Kenote Mag - thus the new name. Tornado Head will still be on this account but for those who are looking for SMASHED please don't panic. We aren't going anywhere, we are still here just this account will be turned over to the Kenote Mag team so everyone h...
Well we at SMASHED have been moving, so to speak, at the speed of light.
Okay not literally - the real reason for this post is because we have some cool news!
SMASHED is creating a literary magazine for kids 11 and under. Its called Kenote Mag - thus the new name. Tornado Head will still be on this account but for those who are looking for SMASHED please don't panic. We aren't going anywhere, we are still here just this account will be turned over to the Kenote Mag team so everyone have fun, enjoy and be good. I'll be checking in on you all.
Alexandria Hayden
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To anyone who cares, its raining here again. There's even a tornado warning for where I'm at. I can't sleep and I wrote a poem about this. For anyone to read it, its in my poem list and I think its called thunderstorms too. How do I know I'm gonna wake up if the siren thing goes off? I can't sleep and I'm having nightmares like my poem. Someone please tell me I will wake up.
To anyone who cares, its raining here again. There's even a tornado warning for where I'm at. I can't sleep and I wrote a poem about this. For anyone to read it, its in my poem list and I think its called thunderstorms too. How do I know I'm gonna wake up if the siren thing goes off? I can't sleep and I'm having nightmares like my poem. Someone please tell me I will wake up.
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Hey...
I've been really depressed lately. *cries* I don't really want to breathe anymore, so..........I've been contemplating suicide lately. I know that a lot of people love me, but even more people, including my family, hate my guts. The thing is if I committed suicide, I'd be with Eliza. She was the only one who went through what I went through. I don't wanna be among the living anymore, but even if I commit suicide, I'll still walk this Earth because I'm a Jashinist. I can't give up being a Jashinist now; I'm too far into the religion and I love Jashin a lot. I've been trying to keep myself from doing it for my second family and my biological siblings, but I don't think I can handle being hit and abused anymore. I know hearing this from a twenty-year-old is really childish, but it's true...
My beloved is dead, seeing her in my dreams is not enough, my family has been rejecting me since I was nine-years-old, people want me dead. Maybe I should just give them what they want.
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LMFAO!!!! If you saw the Jessi Slaughter video's then laugh your ass off. XD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5g98TAjeXmw
LMFAO!!!!
If you saw the Jessi Slaughter video's then laugh your ass off. XD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5g98TAjeXmw
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A projection of their hairy, smelly, old, decrepit vaginas. The British, ex-pats moreso than anyone else, are just so classy and whites...soooooooo brave! And psychologists? Claiming 'transferrence' whenever their clinical, control freak, dimestore shrink-wrapped, flash card, Freudian crap gets fihured out? I'll stop here, I'm getting too angry...
A projection of their hairy, smelly, old, decrepit vaginas. The British, ex-pats moreso than anyone else, are just so classy and whites...soooooooo brave! And psychologists? Claiming 'transferrence' whenever their clinical, control freak, dimestore shrink-wrapped, flash card, Freudian crap gets fihured out? I'll stop here, I'm getting too angry...
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I AM IN PRETERM LABOR WITH MELANIE I AM READY TO HAVE HER AT ANY MOMENT NOW I AM 1CM DILATED FOR HER TO COME.
I AM IN PRETERM LABOR WITH MELANIE I AM READY TO HAVE HER AT ANY MOMENT NOW I AM 1CM DILATED FOR HER TO COME.
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